Louis L’amour Saved My Life

An Essay by O.M. Balla, published in the SouthWest Sage, newsletter of SouthWest Writers

Just to dispel any misunderstanding up front, I never actually met Louis L’amour. He never reached out his hand to pluck my struggling body from a rain swollen river. He never yanked me out of the path of a careening city bus. But what he did do was just as vital to my survival – he wrote fiction.

When I was twenty-one, married with three children and trying to survive a spiritual, emotional, mental, and financial train wreck, I discovered Louis L’amour’s Sitka. That phenomenal piece of literature bore me on a magic carpet of woven words, away from the turmoil that was my life, and into flights of escape. The harsh expanse of Alaska, the tough men and often tougher women, the struggle to not only survive, but thrive against overwhelming odds, those all spoke to my depressed, lonely, fearful spirit.

After that, I haunted the local public library in search of more L’amour titles. I grew to crave the sensation of being ferried into the past while watching from the safe distance of the present. I thrilled in the knowledge that everything would turn out okay for the men and women with whom I found myself identifying. I read everything Louis L’amour wrote, and his words comforted me. They gave me hope.

Over the next few years I branched out into other areas of fiction. I reveled in the excitement of spy novels written by Helen MacInnes, feasted on the haunted offerings of Stephen King, and devoured the cerebral musings of Isaac Asimov.

My world changed and expanded. Eventually, the idea that I myself could change took root. At the age of twenty-nine I went to college, where I learned how to teach others to read and write.

Thirty years later, I still look forward to those quiet times when I can burrow into my pile of pillows, a cup of hot tea at my elbow and a compelling story in my hands. I still thrill at being escorted into other realms, other dimensions, other realities.

Some people believe that every person has a unique niche in this world, a slot molded in her image and into which she alone will fit. I don’t know if that’s so. But I do know that writers hold a special place in the human experience, some even to the point of sparking world change.

So, thanks to those of you who answer the call to write in whatever genre beckons. Thanks for meeting deadlines, for struggling with agents, for doing hours of research, for rewriting innumerable times and not giving up. Thanks for following the tuggings of your muse. And thank you Louis L’amour, for saving my life.

3 thoughts on “Louis L’amour Saved My Life”

  1. As it happens, my father was, in his youth, an oudoorsman. Not the hunter, nor particularly a fisherman (though one of his prized possessions was a flyrod and a creel given to him by none other than Zane Grey), but he surveyed roads and fire trails in the Pacific Northwest, where he met my mother. He slept in tents or under the stars, cooking over open fires. One thing he always carried was a bag of books. After his passing, I discovered a box in his den, marked “LL full set, never open.” Sure enough it was a complete collection of Louis L’Amour, in paperback. I also discovered 8 leatherbound reprints.

    1. Sounds like your father and Louis had a lot in common. I loved his books. How cool that you now have a complete set . . . I’m only a bit jealous.
      Thanks for the comment, Richard. Good to hear from you, as always. Hope all is well with you.

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